Admittedly, I get jealous when I see pictures of, and read stories about, gay couples who've been together for twenty, thirty, forty years and more. "Couldn't that have happened for me?" I've thought.
I know there's no way to re-do history, and no way to know just what would have happened if anything had been different. But, I will not shy away from fantasizing about it. Sometimes, doing that stirs a bit of rage inside of me. Most of the time, however, it stirs a lot of joy. Those romantic dreams that I began having, and enjoying, so long ago still live, and I am glad that they do.
I'll be sixty years old in less than five years. I enjoy many pleasant memories. I won't complain! I won't regret! Besides, Wow! What a ride life has been! But, yes, I'll reflect and fantasize! I'll dream on!